I am the mother of 3 children who want to see their mom live to be there for all of their special moments.  If change doesn’t happen, then I won’t be there for them like I need to be.   Weight for me, like many of you, has been a constant struggle.  When I was younger it required nothing for me to maintain a 135lb average on my 5’5″ frame.  However, despite being a “healthy weight” my eating habits were far from healthy.  My relationship with food was deeply affected by my relationship with my mother, something I still need to work through, and impacted by her own struggle with weight.  As of the start of this blog I am at my heaviest weight (248.3 lbs) and I refuse to live another year dying.  My hope is to find support while sharing the raw and honest journey I’m now embarking on.